I've decided I don't know what I'm trying to do with photography, or if I'm succeeding.
I no longer think it can be intellectualized.
So I'll just let my Higher Self guide me, and hope.
Update: From the first comment to this I now realize the above sounds like it's a bad thing. But I don't mean I'm stuck or something, on the contrary, it's probably better than ever. I just mean that while it's going great, I can't say where it's going, but that's fine with me.
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Funny, for many weeks now, I have so often been dreaming at night about photographing. I don't know why, I didn't used to, despite having done it on and off for over thirty years.
Nothing terribly important or emotional about it, a camera and photographing just is part of the dream, like riding a bicycle might be. And very varied cameras and situations too. For instance the night before yesterday I was using a tiny cardboard camera which was also a digicam. At one point I took a snap of myself watching a film featuring Iggy Pop...
I don't know what it all signifies.